Friday, January 30, 2009

Failed competancy check.

So yeah. It's been a while. And this isn't much of a post, but don't worry - I've got a couple of things in the works. In the meantime, here's a funny story.

Once upon a time, there was a girl. This girl rolled over in bed one night in the middle of a lovely dream. There may or may not have been pixies. She rolled over and woke herself up from her lovely dream by solidly smacking her forehead against the wall. Then she had a headache all the next day.

Yes, this is my life. I am that girl. And one day I will learn competance.

Hopefully.

Monday, January 5, 2009

Lovely ladies.

I watched a movie recently in which a character explains to another character:

"In the movies we have leading ladies and we have the best friend. You, I can tell, are a leading lady, but for some reason you are behaving like the best friend."

I used to be the best friend. For year's I was the best friend, which is strange as for the majority of my life, I prided myself on being the leading lady. But sometimes life takes over and knocks you down, and then decides to throw a couple of curve balls while you're down there, and it's just easier to put yourself in the passenger side of the car for a change and be driven around. And it's been fine. But it took me hearing that one line for me to understand why I haven't been as happy lately. I'm tired of the passenger seat. I'm ready for a little limelight. I mean, you're supposed to be the leading lady of your own life, right? I realize that it's taken a while, but just like sometimes you have to fall to stand up straighter, I think sometimes you need to let someone else drive the plot lines for a bit , if for no other reason than to see where you don't want to story to go. I find that I'm rediscovering a little thing called gumption. I gotta say, it's kinda nice.....